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Monday, April 30, 2007
2:20 AM

i no longer feel the ease in spelling out my thoughts to anyone. basically i just keep mum. be it to you, him or her. i don`t think i owe anyone any reason. i just don`t feel like discussing my problems somewhat. i`m stuck in deep shacks. deep enough to bury me if you are keen to know. and if you don`t comprehend, simple enough; don`t shoot your mouth as if you do and attempt to make me pissed off at you. my character traits pose me at threats. and i jolly well know it. but i still allow the threats to attack me. how much more silly can i get? might as well point the pistol at me before things worsen. i very much wanted to get my stand firm so i can get out of the shacks i`m stuck in, but seems like it isn`t working. been losing tonnes of sleep these few nights. seems like i`m awfully rooted in this longest nightmare ever. i had always know i`m a different blend from the circle. that disheartened me much but yet i managed to up my major accupoint abit. until the viscosity of the blood flowing through me abnormals rather recently. my self is challenged by the abundant factors in which i had problems disclosing. my purpose of blogging is not to set anyone in offense nor to throw anyone challenges so i see no purpose of doing the latter. turning to my blog`s one of my ways to divulge my displeasure about certain issues before i`m completely devoured. at this point of time, i guess i only harbour the wish to end these off peacefully and brilliantly.

i`m shagged. my mind and body are ceasing to co-operate soon.
what`s happening to my willpower?

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:20 AM


Wednesday, April 25, 2007
12:50 AM

had just completed the "requested report" wick kor needed and emailed it to him. and yes, he made me miss HK again. =.= but anyways, since he`s going back again, do enjoy and please remember my lao po bing! lols! =D

sheer tireness just wrapped me up like... totally. after gymming with will today, i met up with wick kor to have lunch. finally indulge in my cravings for KFC! and yes, thanks man, my gy session went down to waste again. read on to know why. after lunch while we were deciding where to head on to, mr edwin huang called wick kor. since we had nothing in mind whereby we can do, we head down in wick kor`s car to town to find edwin. and thank you edwin, we both went down in super casual wear! -.- before we met edwin, we went to indulge ourselves in ice-creams! then we headed to MS for high tea! cheese cakes, fondues and drinks. oh, fats building up inside again!!! i told myself in firm assurance, " I DO NOT NEED ANYMORE DINNER TONIGHT!" but... but... after some shopping and strolling stuff, we were hungry again! and last minute, xinni called and we decided to head on to adam`s village for dinner! oh my! i had mee goreng, fried hokkien mee, fried kway teow, rojak and drank bandung with lots of condensed milk! sinful right!!!! i believed wick kor felt the same and what`s more, he can`t do any strenous exercise now and he`s worried he`ll turn into a mashi maro soon! lols! and worse still, me, edwin and wick kor are all having sore throats now! well, i guess we deserve it!! lmao!!! as a punishment for eating too much! we are really leading a tai-tai`s life today!! but i really enjoyed la. relax a little once in a while is definitely great! we even drove to mount faber and labrador`s park. mother nature is so peaceful and lovingly beautiful!

but i was dearly apologetic to let wanting and huishan waited for me till 2230 at mac. lucky enough they were mugging so i didn`t make them wait for nothing! phew! anyways, had a small chat with them. =) told me their problems and i offered advices. they are still so adorable. haha!

i need sleep badly........ =O

KO`...

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:50 AM


Tuesday, April 24, 2007
10:40 AM

i had too much to dream the last few nights!
或许是日有所思, 夜有所梦吧.
if some of my dreams do happen in reality....
wouldn't it be nice???
i wonder...

well well well...
as for now...
i`m waiting for the clock to strike 12 noon.
LUNCH time!
meeting wick kor at AMK Hub.
perhaps can pop by AE to visit iskandar? (AE reminds me of sth else!!)
and hey i don`t only think about food ok!
i just returned home from gym!

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 10:40 AM


Sunday, April 22, 2007
11:26 PM

_____ A wretched soul, bruised with adversity.
this sentence, merely 6 words, explained completely what i couldn`t.

_____ Hardest movement is not when you lose something and tears come out of your eyes but it is the one when you lose something and you still manage to smile.
and this sentence sort of explained my thoughts.

_____ Life is an experiment. It could end in disaster one day, puts you on top of the world the next day and will leave you wondering what happens, the next. The challenge is to turn the experiment into a life, well experimented.
and something which encouraged me a little. just a little. =)

this is what i`m doing now. i feel down, i ask myself the reason(s) and i find something to pick myself up a little. =) tears are precious, conserve them for something more worthy of its value!

好喜欢暁妍说的一句话: "应以不变应万变."
傻傻的我变了吗?
变的是想法, 是观念, 不是心吧? =))

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 11:26 PM


Monday, April 16, 2007
10:53 PM

went out with wick kor today for a mission today --- to get hazel`s 21st`s present. managed to get what leader jasmine suggested. both of us were complaining about the hot hot hot sweltering sun and the long walks. by the time we reached bugis, we seemed rather listless. but still, the mission`s on. had lunch and shopping mission started. bought what we were hunting for (3 out of 21 presents i think) then we left for sim lim square to get wick kor`s notebook cooling pad and bingo, found something suitable! =) the weather was bad and we headed off like desperate souls to get drinks! then we walked to parklane mall where wick kor get his car from his mum and phew!!!! before we left, his mum asked me if i wanna get a pair of sneakers. looks fine but still considering. and his mum`s hunting him. he ran out and his mum pulled me back. so i shouted to him to come back. LOL! was asked to take pictures of the shoes. shall perhaps advertise for her. LOLS! anyways, we left for tampines mall to continue our 2nd part of the original mission and wick kor`s personal mission. our legs almost could`nt make it. wick kor almost fell asleep (actually while driving he already said he wanted to sleep, but fortunately i was noisy enough to make our trip a safe one!). alright, got everything we wanted to get in the end after like 2 or 3 hours! actually in between the hunt at tampines mall, we went slacking at the hong kong cafe. lols. must enjoy a little right? rewarded ourselves a little. and don`t know why whenever i saw panda soft toys, i got reminded of our dear qicai who`s stuck in camp. =( oh ya, uncle song smsed me saying he wanna eat some tako but i replied his sms halfway thru and i forgot to send again! sorry, my apologies. aunty ele is blur. please be forgiving. lmao! and yeps, wick kor sent me home at around 7 plus with the big presents. whew!!! tiring day! thank god he drove today! and mr delrick if you`re reading this, remember our date with you on 280407. don`t let wick nag already! haha!

"要我从何说起呢? 说了也未必有知音人. 得到的答案多数是, "妳多心了吧", 又或者是"別想太多啦". 我心情的高低起伏让我在原地绕圈圈. 我不会说你们不明白, 可能是不能感同身受吧. 我不会责怪任何人, 也不想多说. 我不准自己哭, 我不能絕望, 我要勇敢些. 就算沒人为我加油打气, 我也要乐观一些些. 燕芳哪能说倒就倒嘛!"

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 10:53 PM


Sunday, April 15, 2007
2:55 PM

ok, enough of all those crappy freaking mood swings the past week. certain things and people are just not worth devoting much time to. so i decided to get my own life unbothered by them. =)

the past week i was busy with tuition and more tuition lessons. finally got a short break before my french class later, to blog a little.
yesterday was xms's homecoming day. rushed down after my tuition lesson in a cab. met jolene at the school gate and then xinni and pearlin came along. winnie, wilk and kian an was a little late so we went in to school 1st. the 1st person i saw was jenna. haha. she so likes to act funky with the shirt collars. then will arrived, followed by kian an. well, since i graduated ages ago, i felt a rush of uncertainty and unfamiliarity upon me. it was like i`m in a strange school `cos xms had changed so much over the years. but nonetheless, i still had will around and he`s familiar with the school since he graduated later than us others. many teachers left already and i saw many unfamiliar faces. some juniors were kinda sucky too i would say. and yes i saw peeps from 4E4'2002 as well, those high profile ones in my class as usual, ming kian, ching wen, daniel, jason, jian li (da ge), and min. saw ying qing, seng lum and yong hwee as well. well, yong hwee looks kinda shocked when he sees me, don`t know why also. lols. not long after winnie arrived. then we began our search for teachers. saw mdm chua (cai ma) and she teased me and xinni, especially xinni. and she kept running away when we wanted a photo with her. met her at the corridor later and she ran away also. -.-" but i still remember the days when she asked me copy essays for her so she could paste them on the notice board outside the science labs `cos she said my handwriting is nice. those were the days. anyways we got ourselves some food and drinks. it was an extremely hot hot day!!!! almost got burnt! well, i saw aloy as well, he grew so tall already! also met weeting. asked her to treat us to mac one day. lol! and well, we went into the office to get mr joseph lim for a couple of times. and yes, after a long wait, he appeared and we kinda chatted and finally before we left, we took a picture with him. =) here are the pictures taken in xinmin. =D

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this parade square used to be a carpark. =(

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the canteen is bustled with people and activities.

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the air-con school hall. but i still miss the old one.

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jenna and me.

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ka, xn, yf, win, jo, pearl.

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tall aloy, me and will.

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UNCLE SONG, me and will.

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me and weeting.

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mr joseph lim and us!

after this i left xinmin with the rest then went over to will`s house to collect his clothes and rushed over to our makeover site with ching fang. thank god she had the vouchers for all of us. the photos will be out in may though. i look abit different i think. haha! show you peeps the photos then.

after the makeover i had to attend joseph`s 21st birthday chalet. when old classmates come together, there`ll be endless gossips about our lives. lols! talked about everything under the sun. haha. well, pictures here again...

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del, nic, joseph, angie, me and shan.

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self-timer did us the job!

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happy 21st joseph!

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:55 PM


Tuesday, April 10, 2007
1:12 AM

bad karma.
it`s in me. flowing right in me.
i had no way to stop the rush.
i hugged myself tight in self reassurance.
i whispered words of light consolation.
things are going to be fine.
yes, they will be. very very.
the stars winked and the wind wrapped me in my cool.

i find no appropriate reason to rejoice.
strength`s in me. so what?
i dragged my soul to move on.
i nod to the rythme dedicated to me.
i conform wholeheartedly.

tell me i`m not depressed.
why should i?
if you think you can scramble my life,
i`m sorry.
who gave you the authority, excuse me!
what an audacity!

tears..
a firm history.
a harsh present.
an unforseen future.

me..
i`m only copyrighted.
i`m still me.
=)


---je peux sentir les incertitudes accompagnées des bruits de mon battement de coeur.---

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 1:12 AM


Sunday, April 08, 2007
1:38 AM

070407`s over. =(( and certain friends may know, i went to Jolin's 唯舞独尊世界巡迴演唱会2007. i`ve been waiting for this day right from the start when i got to know she`s coming to singapore for this concert. all along i think she`s someone with super great charisma on stage, someone who can dance and sing rather well. well i was listening to her songs last year as recommended by raymond since my last break-up. they brought me a very different feeling. and thank god this concert fell within my expectations. it`s superbly fantastically fantabulously bombastic. she`s really a dance diva! there was a part during the concert whereby she actually danced with her crews carrying rifles. well reminds me of the fancy drills we have in secondary school npcc days, but i swear hers was much more fantastic! that was just so cool! i was rather sick actually but throughout the concert i just sang along with Jolin and was super excited `cos i did`nt think i could make it to her concet this time and could actually see her performing live in front of my eyes. =) i sang till my voice went hoarse even till this moment. but the only disappointment was her costumes. nothing special actually. i was hoping to see her appear in a princess outfit since she addresses herself as a princess. =( i took some pictures but were too small `cos i`m sitting quite far back. anyways this time have to thank wick kor again, `cos he fetched me and ching fang two-way since he`s also going. before the concert we were waving to one another since him and qian wei were sitting directly opposite our block of seats. he said since as hard as we try waving to Jolin, she may not even see us after all, why not wave to him instead when he can see us. =.= but sparstically, we did that. during concert we still smsed. we agreed that the people in our blocks were not 'high' enough so it`s abit wasteful. but well, in the end i still entertained myself, yes only myself. LOL! the 2-hour duration ended and we went supper-ing @ kovan. and since the sick one cannot take certain food, wick kor and qian wei suggested eating beancurd. so kind and considerate of them. =) as we all were struck by lethargy after supper, we headed straight home in wick kor`s car. i`m currently out of voice and my nose is super blocked. pictures of my genting trip, outings and Jolin's concert. please bear with the poor quailty of some pictures. thank you.

GENTING~
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my time-killers in the hotel room.

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this just reminds me of e zuo ju zhi wen. =)

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me at the lift lobby. i love the clouds.

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my cute cousins.

OUTING~
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sorry, we just have nothing better to do. =D

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i knew her for freaking 16 years and no lies about it.

JOLIN`S CONCERT~
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my tix. xD

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the stage and fully packed spectator seats.

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this is how small Jolin looks from my seat. super far la!

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Jolin on her J-initialed armchair in mid-air. enchanting.

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just like her 'dao dai' mv. and at this moment she was singing that song. =) really nice.

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Jolin requested the wave thingy from all the spectators. our section did it best according to her. haha!

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end of concert picture.

i just received a piece of bad news. i need to save myself from the craps. i can`t lose the urge which pushes me on... i can`t....

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 1:38 AM


Friday, April 06, 2007
12:25 PM

woah, i had yet to update my blog since i came back from genting. well, enough said about genting. people had been asking how was my trip. one word, BAD, no doubt the climate there was so much more comfortable than singapore. in genting, i`ve to babysit my cousins with my sister while the adults went to try their luck at the stupid casino and we were stuck in the room without the room key, meaning that when the tods and even ourselves were hungry, we could`nt even pop out of the room to get food. `cos why? `cos if me or my sister was to go out, the tods wanna follow and my sister would`nt let me stay in the hotel room alone so well goodness gracious, we're trapped! and there was'nt anywhere for us to go except for the small shopping arcade and the theme park. i wished i could go down to KL but with parents you and i know it`s rather impossible. thus me and my sister just walked around aimlessly and all the time we were buying cookies to eat. LOL! we did go to the theme park also. actually on the 1st day morning when i arrived at genting, i saw zhen yao and his friends there while my sister met her friends. such a coincidence! thought can go together with zhen yao and friends to the theme park but his mobile line does`nt have international roaming so i could`nt call him. so in the end we went with my sister`s friends instead. tried most of the functioning rides. quite similar to the ones i took in hk so i was more or less calmer. =) but shopping wise, i din get anything! sad right? wasted trip! i think i slept more than i play. =(

ok then i came back and i fell sick again. sighs...

i was busy doing stuff with my friends since i was back. i could`nt care less though i was sick. `cos i need some funds for studies. hope all efforts will be paid off. =) and then i just started on a new tuition assignment as well. my tutee's mum was a strict lady and somehow or rather she resembles june so i start to miss june again. lols! she looks rather young and we got along quite well as she talked to me about her previous tutor and her son. it certainly looks like she got a good impression of me which seriously hope so. the son was kinda reserved when he first saw me. but after the lesson we were on talking terms already. seems that i can get along with this kid also. =) he is a rather handsome young boy i would say, tanned and cool (hey i`m not a paedophile hor! i just think for a primary 1 boy, he looks really fine.), and he is an independent learner also. i hope i can really help him secure his grades though. =) looking forward to get more tutees as i`ve decided to be a full time tutor. =) by the way, the day before was the last time i taught rachel. she gave me sovenirs. so sweet. =)

recently there`s a song by evan yo call 我可以. usually i'll have my speakers off when viewing blogs `cos some music really cannot make it. but yesterday i accidentally left it on and i heard this song playing in uncle songhan's blog. it`s super nice. and uncle songhan directed me to you-tube to watch the mv. guess what, at night i went k box with lionel and his friend, he sang this song to start the ball rolling! my new favourite song. xD

oh yes, many are going back to school. be it the beginning of a new phase or be it after school holidays, all the best. do study hard. =) and for those having exams, remember to study smart k? all the best as well. =)

me? i continue to slog hard!!! and slack harder! lols! yeah, finished blogging!

posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:25 PM